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I'm frustrated. I'm frustrated because I feel like I am wasting my life on Plan B. I'm frustrated because I know that there is no such thing as Plan B. There is only one plan and that's God's plan. It's not as if I'll get to heaven at the end of life and God will say, "Well, um, actually, I wanted you to be a pilot, not a pirate,"* and I'll say, "Darn reception! Shouldn't have used a cell phone when I made the call!"
No. There's only one plan in life. So why do I feel as if I am spinning my wheels on Plan B?
It's because of some stupid hope that this is all temporary. No, I am not being apocalyptic here. (Although, is this all temporary? Or am I neo-calvinist? Some days I just wonder what good higher education will ever do for anyone.) Just that Plan A was always to get married and raise a family and that no amount of feminist "empowerment" and education and "resting in God's will" and "waiting for His timing" can choke that desire to a happy death.
Ah, I realized that I am always depressed this time of year. I think it is a combination of lack of sunlight and being away from family for too long.
*Like evand, I give out extra credit for reference guessing.
UPDATE: Some Coltrane and a walk in the crisp outdoors have put me in a better frame of mind. Only five more days till I am home! Thanks, Carrie, for the Funke response. Made me smile.
Hear, hear! That is a hard struggle for women to deal with-- no wonder existential crises come so easily to us, when we not only have to wait, but busy ourselves while we wait. If I were in Canada, I would wrap a warm and fuzzy blanket around you and we would go and walk in a park. You'll get to be home soon, yes?
Posted by: Rachel at 13.12.05 7:35Dearest one, there is no such thing as Plan B when we have a Sovereign God. You are where you are supposed to be right now and if God wants you to be a brain surgeon or EMT then He alone is the one who could change you from turning green and fainting at the sight of blood (remember the stretched turkey esophogus in the kitchen?). If God wants you to be somewhere else, He will not be shy about telling you, In the meantime, what does He want you to learn here and now about Himself--that is the greater question. How is this experience helping you to grow closer to Him?
I'm glad that a good brisk walk lifted your spirits and I too am counting the days until you're home.
Posted by: Patsy at 14.12.05 19:04AHHHH! You are NOT allowed to mention the turkey esophogus episode in public!!!!
:)
Posted by: funke at 14.12.05 19:31ooh, ooh! Can I make a reference guess? "Pilot not a pirate" is from Gilbert and Sullivan's Pirates of Penzance (which we got to see on your eleventh birthday?) :)
Hang in there, big sis! I am looking forward to seeing you soon!